Tuesday, April 2, 2013

(Not so subtle) Reminders

I'm pretty sure my life is full of them.
Almost every day I'm (not so subtley) that most of my friends are married, and I am not.
I meet up with friends and most of them end up talking about their fiancés/spouses a good part of the time, simply out of habit and having common subjects to talk about.
I go out with friends, in groups, and their spouses all go with.
My mother keeps talking about how most of my friends are married or getting married.
Work talks about it.
Damn facebook and other blogs throw it at me.
It's annoying.
I'm not upset or anything that I'm still single, rather I'm upset that society makes me feel that I'm ridiculously far behind because I don't already have two kids and a house and a perfect life.
I'm fine with my relationship right now.
I'm still finding myself, and I'm trying to figure out where I'm supposed to go with my life.
Right now I can't decide if I'm going to be decorating cakes at a corporate retail store for the rest of my life, or if I'm going to become a HR manager of some sort, or if I will own my own business decorating cakes.
I have a dream, and right now the great debate is whether or not it is realistically within my reach, or if it will forever remain a dream.
My theory in life is this: I don't believe that I will find someone to be happy with in life until I am happy with where I am at in my life.
I'm not going to lie, I have seen several of my friends get married and separated/divorced within a year of marriage.
That fact alone is scary, mainly because I don't want to pay for a wedding if it's doomed.
I have also seen some people bounce between boyfriends and spouses and back again, and that is just upsetting and confusing.
I don't want to be on the receiving end of something like that either.
Relationships take work, I get it.
Some of the 'work' I would like to avoid.
Call me crazy, but that's just how I think.
For now I will just continue on my way, paying off my debts, searching for my dream job, and looking for the little nook in life that I am supposed to fir perfectly in.
We'll see how it works out for me...

My brother sent me this- he found it on the Chive. Hilarious site, check it out!

In other news, I get a massage tomorrow.
Halle-fucking-lujah.
This past week has been horrible.
Work is ridiculous, per usual.
I did a race this past sunday (Easter morning), and I'm doing another one on Saturday morning.
I'm excited.
Everything has just been exhausting, and I'm so over it.
Tomorrow morning I should try and run before my massage, but I think I'll wait until after.
Sleep is a good thing.
A very good thing.

Check out this song from Emeli Sande.
It's wonderfully amazing.
I'm so glad I listen to Cities97 so I can discover amazing artists such as her.
<3

I signed up for another exercise class, this one will be with my friend Lindsay.
We're going to do a Kettle Bells class and I'm so excited.
I will keep doing yoga, tap dance, and jazzercising.
I'm also contemplating doing a water jogging class one morning a week, but we shall see.
My schedule is getting really full.
I like to be busy, but this may be the maximum that I can do.
We'll see...
I'm exhausted, crabby, and ready for bed.

Keeping it real,
Bamf

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