Uneasy

My bestest friend ever gets married tomorrow. 

I'm honored to be her maid of honor, and to play that special role in her wedding. 

At the same time I'm terrified of being pushed aside and left behind as she becomes married and in her own life. 

I can never tell her, or anyone else, my real fear because I've seen it happen so many times with friends already. 

Makes me so sad and uneasy. 

I should be happier, but I just want to cry my eyes out. 

Now typing that out I feel like an even more horrible person. 

Oh yeah, I HATE that I'm going to yet another wedding solo. 

I don't even want to go to weddings anymore cause its humiliating. 

Good thing everyone I know is getting married. 

FML. 

Yay for another wedding full of drinking alone. 

Depressingly yours,

BAMF

P.s. this post makes me sound the most depressing bitch ever, huh? 

P.p.s. I got rear ended by another car today so now my car is all jacked up. Just the cherry on the top.