Life is never perfect

Life isn't perfect, so therefore a person can't be expected to be either.

If everything were perfect, we wouldn't understand the value of some events that happen in life. Milestone events that can cause so much heartache for some people.

Tonight I learned that a very good friend of mine is pregnant. I am so happy for them, and I hope she has the picture perfect pregnancy. My friend B has had a very tough time with infertility, and at one time no one thought she would ever be able to get pregnant. Thanks to modern day medicine, and with the help of many praying friends, her and the hubby are expecting- and she was given the good news on her birthday! Best present ever! I have see my own family go through the infertility problems, so it was heartbreaking to see them go through it also. I am ever so grateful for the miracles in life- it gives hope to the rest of us.

As I see everyone around be becoming preggo, I wonder if I will ever get that. I wonder if I will want that, should I get to that point in life. It makes me sad that I fear I will never be given the chance. Deep down inside I know that what I want in life won't come until I am truly happy with where I am at in all stages. At the rate I am going, I wonder if I will ever get happy. I am so tired of being depressed, but I dot know what to do anymore. I'm ready to throw my hands up and surrender to a convent or something. Ok, that's a lie- I'm sure I would get kicked to the curb during purgatory. Damn my bad decisions.

I know I will never be perfect to some people, but I wonder if I will be my own version of 'almost perfect' someday. Only time will tell, but meanwhile, life must go on...

Love, peace, and chicken grease
Megan